REEMERGENCE PART 2
I cringed when I first looked at the photographs. I thought to myself, “I hope no one judges me as a photographer based on way these turned out.“
Oh yikes. That was some pretty awful self talk.
Realizing we need less negative self in our lives, I got ahold of myself and regrouped.
I arrived at the realization that you can go ahead and judge. In fact, I would love to show you what I see. This is Reemergence Part 2.
The first time I worked on self portraits I had a difficult time with the technology. No matter what I did the camera would not connect to the phone I was trying to use as the remote trigger. I ended up putting the camera on a 10 second timer and running back and forth. The photographs were positively out of focus.
This time, I was able to get the app on my phone to connect to my camera, and they’re all in focus! I went from a blurry picture of myself to joy-filled photographs of myself that are in focus.
In my newly opened self judgement book, that is worthy of high marks.
It’s not just that these images are in focus and joy filled. They are also brave. The fan was blowing my hair everywhere and the tulle everywhere too. But I still did it, and I laughed the whole time.
I would be happy to be judged as brave.
Not only am I brave, I’m also dedicated to self growth. I’m dedicated to my own self exploration through this project, and I’m dedicated to helping you explore who you are as well.
I’m also reminding myself that I am new to this process. I am still equipment testing and light testing. I never judge my clients based on a light test. In fact, I never judge them at all. What reason do I have to so harshly judge myself?
I remembered instead that remarkable things happening along the way.
I kept going, and I kept exploring. These next two photographs were the very next light test.
I feel last these last two sure show signs of progress. I am willing to judge myself as confident, capable, and only beginning to find my creative voice. That is what reemergence is all about.
If you are reemerging too, and you are over the age of 44, please look into my 44 Letters project. I would love to help you tell your story.
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